Heavy Heart

I stayed off the computer most of the morning.  I was aiming to be ahead of the game in terms of getting the house cleaned, laundry done and a good start to my weekend.  I was looking forward to blogging today, especially since an unexpected stop at the store yielded SEVERAL new pairs of socks for  $0.88.  Then a package came in the mail for my next GIVEAWAY!  Yes....I was SO EXCITED to sit down and be bubbly excited about my post today.

Sometimes no matter how hard I try to put on my blinders, be in my own little world and shut out all the dark & evil that ruins so many lives it still smacks me hard in the face.  Within seconds of getting on the computer I felt like I had been punched in the gut and tears were streaming down my face.  Scrolling through facebook and twitter don't help matters at all.  The heartache of what's happened in Newton, Connecticut this morning is plastered everywhere.  My whole put on my blinders aspect is not out of lack of compassion, but I can't handle such heart ache.  9-11 ripped me to shreds and I don't personally know a single soul that was even there.  I'm feeling the same hurt right now and I don't think I know a single person that even lives in Connecticut.  Yet I feel so affected by the events of what has happened.

Suddenly any anger or frustration I felt with my kids this morning no longer matters.  How lucky am I that I get to pick them up from school soon and love on them and hug them very tight.  It's certainly a reality check for everyone of us to realize what is/isn't important.

I decided to put on hold what I had planned to tell you about today.  My socks will still be here, my giveaway will start soon enough.  Those precious children and other innocent people involved are worth the wait.